Living with Iya agba was worst than a Nightmare… Tho the woman was old… But her tongue was a weapon…. Whatever that comes out from her mouth hurts badly… She always reminded Abike how disgraceful she was to their entire family
“And I was praying to God to keep me alive so I’ll witness your wedding… Now seewhat youve brought upon yourself… You’re such a disgrace…. You’re an Hypocrite Abike!
These was what she heard on a daily basis
She was already depressed
No one to talk to
No one to pour out her feelings too
No one to lean on
She was all alone
Dying in silence
Baring the shame and sorrow
Just to keep an innocent child
With the way things were going she had no idea of how she would survive with a child….
She was young…
With no one to help her
As day passes…. Life became harder
She was already five months gone… Those months were Terrible so terrible that the thought of it alone Made her shiver…. And how she even managed to scale through did not concern her at all
She made up her mind
She couldn’t take it anymore
The Depression has eating so deep in her and all she desperately wanted was to “End it all” and that was exactly what she did… Taking over dose of Iya agba’s drugs… Which she had no idea what it was for… Well she never cared… All she wanted to do was to put an end to the misery she was going through….
This was someone who preached against suicide… Telling people that Taking ones life was never and would never be a solution to any problem… But there she was preparing to take her own life…. Forget to cast all her Burdens at his feet(God)… In fact Turning to God again was way out of her options… With the way she had speak blaspheme she doubted he would even listen to her if she had call unto him… So she decided to deal with it the only way she could…..
She experienced a different kind of pain…. With the help of some neighbors… She was rushed to the hospital…. If not for God’s intervention… Maybe she wouldn’t have made it out alive…..
But her actions always leave her with something to regret forever…
The doctor Told her that she might have complications during delivery and her child may be Deformed
On hearing this… It gave her another wound that wouldn’t heal for a life time
She was admitted for two days
Within that short period… A nurse tried to turn her (Abike) back to God
To remind her that God was Faithful, Merciful and reliable…. He never abandon anyone… Even in that darkest moments… He knows what we’re going through…. He’s full aware… He just wants us to turn to him… Tell him our problem and ask for his mercy… “Jesus commanded peter to walk on water…. But yet He was sinking…. ” Some people will say if God Asks me then why is this happening? Why can’t he finish what he started? Why can’t he stop what was going on….. But do you know sometimes he wants us to ask him…. Do you know the moment peter asked for help… God saved him
Abike knew if she turned to God… Things may get better
But she couldn’t… She lost her faith long ago… She was even ashamed to talk to him in prayer….
So she decided again…to just live her life and face what ever that comes her way